Another baby lost, another family shattered. Annabelle's mom recalls the last day with her daughter.
This was my dream come true, to be a mother, of a daughter, to name her Annabelle Lee, to breastfeed her, to have her as natural as I could, to bring her home all dressed up. For 15 months, I was blessed. So blessed... I wanted it all, the bad and the good, I wanted Annabelle to grow up, happy, but just grow up. Always been terrified of SIDS, I was very vigilant for 12 months, always checked her breathing, scared anything might happen. She never had a blanket, pillow, stuffed animals near her sleeping until she was well over 12 months. Hyper-vigilant, not like I am now, but normal new mom hyper vigilance.
I did what I thought was right, vaccines. Because that’s what you do when you love your kids and you want them to be healthy, safe, alive. On November 26th she had 4 vaccines. MMR, DTaP, Chicken Pox and half of a Flu shot.
No fever, that I noticed that night. We went to target after. I always wanted a daughter to take to Target, to shop with. It’s my favorite store, and she loved going to. She was grouchy, rightfully so. They tell you they will be grouchy/sleepy. No fever so no medicine, no need for concern. She ate a corndog with me before she laid down to relax for the night and watch her cartoons. I went to the restroom. Then to clean her room.
She was quiet, she was asleep. No sounds except the low sound of the cartoons. No cries, no whines, no groans, no screams, nothing. Nothing.
It was 11 something, I felt in her packnplay at her diaper, it was wet. I picked her up, she was facedown. It all went so wrong so fast. I screamed for her dad.
... she wasn’t breathing. But she was warm. I don’t recall any color even being gone from her face, she didn’t look dead. I called 911, we gave her CPR.
We caused vomit to come up, it was all over us. It was all over me, I still taste it. I will never ever get that taste out of my mouth. I ran outside. Her dad kept giving her CPR. I just laid outside in my driveway and screamed. A cop was trying to get me up, I couldn’t move. I saw her rushed from the house into an ambulance. She was missing a sock. I was missing a sock. I refuse to think that was just coincidence. We both lost our socks in the commotion.Shuffled us into this room at childrens, I just pushed myself up against a dresser. The nurse that came in was pregnant, and I was furious.
It took forever. It might have only been 5 mins but it took forever for some doctor to come in. They tried to start her heart a few times, with adrenaline I think. It didn’t work. She was gone. They was nothing they could do.
The first question I asked. Could shots have killed her? She just got shots.It’s not even been 10 hours since she got the shots, did the shots kill her? What happened!?
That doctor lied to my face. Any doctor knows that vaccines can kill people. She didn’t know what had happened in her body, she just said no. She reassured me it wasn’t the shots. Again and again.
To be honest, she made me feel stupid for even questioning the shots. Just like many doctors do. Thats the right thing to do, vaccines. The greater good, nothing bad happens, the risk is minimal. Lies, it’s all just a lie.
The doctor said her fever was 114 degrees. So within 30 mins, she went from normal temperature, alive, to dead with a 114-degree temperature.
Sudden Unexplained Death in Childhood is what they call it. SIDS for 12mo +. It’s a crapshoot, it’s a catchall.
The death of a child is probably the most traumatic event any parent can experience. This tragedy is made worse if the child dies in its sleep, apparently for no reason. Sudden infant death syndrome (SIDS) inevitably strikes horror into parents' hearts;
Truthfully, it’s lazy. That is what the coroner told me it was ruled as of that night. So I asked him. Was it the shots? He said, “It’s very suspicious she got shots and died so soon after, but I will not know anything until lab reports and tox screens come back”. He doesn’t recall saying that, but I recall him saying that, perfectly to me.
And she was gone. She didn't just stop breathing in the middle of the night, she was killed by vaccines. Maybe too many, maybe just one was enough. But the vaccines killed my beautiful daughter.
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